Jesus said to him, “Assuredly, I say to you that this night, before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times.” Peter said to Him, “Even if I have to die with You, I will not deny You!” And so said all the disciples. Matthew 26:34-35
His disciples were so determined to stand by His side. They were so confident that they would be strong enough no matter what happened; even if it meant their death. But, in this moment, Jesus knew they were not strong enough yet. Their hearts were still holding on to some weaknesses — maybe even some doubt — and Jesus knew they would be ashamed of their association with Him and deny Him in His darkest hours; even Peter, who had in the past proven to be the most confident of them all.
How many times have I expressed this same confidence only to find out how weak I truly am when faced with standing up for Jesus? In my weakness and doubt I have been ashamed and denied Him as to not be ridiculed by others. Yet, the realization of these failures grieved my heart which gave me the determination to do better; and so goes a true disciple of Jesus.
Peter and the disciples messed up royally yet we see after Jesus’ resurrection that ultimately they didn’t back down. They pushed forward with confidence in the grace Jesus provided in the midst of their weakness and doubt and He does the same for all of us.
On this Lord’s day, remember the confidence you have in the grace of Jesus and allow that to turn your grief in your failures into determination to do better.
What a wretched person that I am, my Lord! I have denied my Savior in some critical moments. And yet, what a wonderful Savior He is as He is ever forgiving of my betrayal. I am grieved by my mishaps, but I am emboldened by His mercy. Through the grace of Jesus I am determined to do better in my failings. By the bread and fruit of the vine, I remember today the reason for which I am able to push forward with confidence. Hallelujah! What a Savior! Amen!
Truth in love,