One Big Contradiction

Depression feels like one big contradiction. You want to be happy and motivated yet everything inside you is telling you not to do what you need to succeed. 

So what do you do? Find what makes it worth it and go against everything you’re feeling for this purpose. It’s exhausting to push through, but the constructive way to get those moments of energy and joy again.

Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.  Philippians‬ ‭3:13-14‬

In Christ I have a worthy goal; a prize which gives me the endurance to push through my depression; to press forward as I fight the exhaustion of this woe to apprehend something greater. You, my Father, have made this possible. I not only persevere for my own sake, but especially for those of whom I am responsible to influence in godly love. You know the depths of strength it takes to get through the contradictions I feel when I am this low. Forgive me for my failings in this, and teach me to trust in Your forgiveness as I forget the things which are behind and reach forward to the moments of joy and energy that are mine in Christ. Amen.

Truth in love,

2 thoughts on “One Big Contradiction

  1. Enjoy your thoughts, sorry I have not had time to comment. But after VBS it will be better. thanks for leaving your sweetie last night she was a big help. She said it would be ok with you if she went home to you with Emily. If you prefer next time I will call.

    Love ya’ll,




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